God is working
It's the only way I can rationalize what's been going on in my heart for the last couple weeks. I've been praying about it like crazy, and He's been changing me. I can feel myself transforming. I want a baby. I TOTALLY want a baby.
I'm ready.
I've been battling with myself for the past three years about whether or not I want to be a mommy. It's been an annoying burden, in a way. Like something that's continually in the back of my mind, sometimes consuming my thoughts so much that I want to scream.
And it's not like there was a moment when a switch flipped and I suddenly decided, "Yes, I want a kid." It seriously feels like God has been gently and gradually - and very definitely - working on me to get me to this point. It's like blinders have been removed from my eyes. All the reasons that I didn't want a child are gone. GONE. It's really quite amazing.
For instance, my craft room. I didn't want to give up my craft room for a nursery. This house is too small to move all my craft supplies somewhere else if I give up that room for a baby. But now I find myself thinking, 'BIG hairy deal, dork! That is a SMALL price to pay in order to make a bedroom for a baby!' So I give up rubber stamping for a few years and go back to it when our child starts school. Or I consolidate my supplies and keep them in a small cabinet in the loft. WHY was I being so SELFISH???
And crocheting is the perfect hobby to have for a mommy. It's quiet and calming, and I can make things for my little one! So I won't have to give up that hobby....ever!
Three weeks ago, I could not picture a kid in this house. Now, I totally can. I can picture myself feeding my baby in a highchair in the kitchen. I can picture sitting on the living room floor tickling my baby's tummy. I can picture my baby at family gatherings getting oohed and ahhed over and feeling so proud that that baby belongs to me. I can picture not being able to imagine our lives before our baby was here.
I can even picture being pregnant! *insert shocked smilie here!* I still don't think I'm gonna like it, but ya know what? I'm not gonna hate it! *insert another shocked smilie here!* The only thing I need to worry about is going off of my "tummy pills" (Librax, my IBS medication). That stuff helps me a LOT. I have a routine gyne appointment on Monday afternoon, so I'll talk to her about that. I've decided that since I'm on an extremely low dosage of Paxil, I will stay on it throughout the pregnancy.
I want to see what a combination of Scott and me looks like. I want to nurture and love and teach and guide a child.
God is indescribably awesome.
I'm ready.
I've been battling with myself for the past three years about whether or not I want to be a mommy. It's been an annoying burden, in a way. Like something that's continually in the back of my mind, sometimes consuming my thoughts so much that I want to scream.
And it's not like there was a moment when a switch flipped and I suddenly decided, "Yes, I want a kid." It seriously feels like God has been gently and gradually - and very definitely - working on me to get me to this point. It's like blinders have been removed from my eyes. All the reasons that I didn't want a child are gone. GONE. It's really quite amazing.
For instance, my craft room. I didn't want to give up my craft room for a nursery. This house is too small to move all my craft supplies somewhere else if I give up that room for a baby. But now I find myself thinking, 'BIG hairy deal, dork! That is a SMALL price to pay in order to make a bedroom for a baby!' So I give up rubber stamping for a few years and go back to it when our child starts school. Or I consolidate my supplies and keep them in a small cabinet in the loft. WHY was I being so SELFISH???
And crocheting is the perfect hobby to have for a mommy. It's quiet and calming, and I can make things for my little one! So I won't have to give up that hobby....ever!
Three weeks ago, I could not picture a kid in this house. Now, I totally can. I can picture myself feeding my baby in a highchair in the kitchen. I can picture sitting on the living room floor tickling my baby's tummy. I can picture my baby at family gatherings getting oohed and ahhed over and feeling so proud that that baby belongs to me. I can picture not being able to imagine our lives before our baby was here.
I can even picture being pregnant! *insert shocked smilie here!* I still don't think I'm gonna like it, but ya know what? I'm not gonna hate it! *insert another shocked smilie here!* The only thing I need to worry about is going off of my "tummy pills" (Librax, my IBS medication). That stuff helps me a LOT. I have a routine gyne appointment on Monday afternoon, so I'll talk to her about that. I've decided that since I'm on an extremely low dosage of Paxil, I will stay on it throughout the pregnancy.
I want to see what a combination of Scott and me looks like. I want to nurture and love and teach and guide a child.
God is indescribably awesome.
posted by Wendy at 6:27 PM
1 Comments:
WendyYou will know, within yourself, if you want a baby or not.
Talk everything over with your gyne on your apointment, the medications you take now, if you
should decide to become pregnant, what are the pros and cons of being on the medications.Then you will be able to make an informed decission on weather or not to stay on medications while pregnant or not.
you can also go to the websites of Librax http://ibscrohns.about.com/cs/prescriptiondrugs/a/libraxfaq.htm
www.Paxil.com
CAN I USE PAXIL IF I AM PREGNANT OR NURSING?
Tell your doctor if you are pregnant or plan to become pregnant. Babies born to mothers who have taken antidepressants, including Paxil, in the third trimester of pregnancy have sometimes developed complications. Reported complications, which may appear at delivery, have included difficulties with breathing, turning blue, seizures, changing body temperature, feeding problems, vomiting, low blood sugar, floppiness, stiffness, tremor, shakiness, irritability or constant crying. Tube feeding, help with breathing and longer hospitalization may be needed.
Like many antidepressants, Paxil can be present in breast milk so tell your doctor if you are nursing.
You can always try yogurt with live cultures, that helps my digestive system alot.
I had been on stomach meds in the past. The last time my lower digestive track was acting up, I tried the yopurt(with live cultures) and have been eating yogurt once a day for a year and a half my whole Digestive track is fine now the yogurt seems to be keeping everything calm and NORMAL.
As for the actually being pregnant I was NOT a happy pregnant woman, I did NOT like being pregnant,I was glad I was pregnant and glad to be haivng a baby, I just concentrated on my baby that helped somewhat.
But there were some things about pregnancy I did like :0)
when I could feel her move around and when she would poke her foot really hard and we could see the shape of her foot.
I also like that I have NO stretch marks.
:0) ~Renae~ :0)
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